Remove All the Thoughts

I had two days off from my full-time job. So needed! My next day off is Super Tuesday (March 3). Not too bad. Today I took my dog to the park despite it only being 38 degrees.

corgi mix

Here is my dog being a typical pup:

I hope I get to stay in all weekend, but I never know when other people have plans with MY time.

The local virtual assistant job is over. Thank god. I don’t think I will be taking a local PT job for a while. I only want 100% remote. The other VA job is going okay. The only part that sucks is that she wants me to cold call places. BTW, that is not a typical VA task, plus she didn’t advertise it. I wouldn’t have applied if she mentioned that. I have social anxiety online. I DON’T DO PHONE CALLS…especially calling random people. Hell, no.

So I don’t know what’s going to happen with this position. She isn’t paying, but I’m getting GOOD coaching from her. She deserves work from me. I’m working on the other tasks, it’s just the calling that leaves me anxious and unable to act.

Praying for a miracle.

Election 2020: So many people (19 million) watched the debate this week. They got to see how much Bloomberg sucks, and how Warren can eviscerate anyone. Bernie did well or okay. He wasn’t attacked too much. Amy and Bloomberg had bad nights. Pete was Pete. Biden kind of had more energy, but he wasn’t 100% clear. Biden is doing better in debates than he did 3 months ago.

Warren raised a ton of money after the debate. Bloomberg fell in the polls (YAY!). But there is another debate for South Carolina. I expect Bloomberg to be a little better. To be fair, this was his first time on a presidential debate stage. But he is still a racist, sexist fuck. 😉 He funds some Democratic things like climate change. But he was a Republican. He supported George W. Bush. He’s a conservative, and I don’t vote for conservatives just because they throw their money at a few progressive issues.

I’m voting for Warren on Super Tuesday. I was going to vote for Sanders, but I have a tradition of always voting for my FIRST CHOICE in the primary. I voted for Howard Dean in the primary, even though he had no shot of winning. Sanders is my 2nd choice. I’m going to try not to vote for Sanders. That would be a strategic vote. I want to vote with my heart because, unlike Bloomberg, I have one. #Dig

This week I…

Music of the week: Nina Simone, Taylor Swift, Joni Mitchell, Maggie Rogers, Miranda Lambert, Tori Kelly, Alessia Cara, Ariana Grande

I need to listen to more Nina Simone. I took a 2-year break for some reason.

TV of the week:  Survivor, Vanderpump Rules, I Am a Killer, The Mind of Aaron Hernandez

I resubscribed to Netflix because I can afford it for now. I’m on the cheapest plan. No HD.

Podcasts of the week:  Crimelines, Dateline, True Crime Garage,  Pod Save America, So You Wanna Be a Witch

Books of the week:

Weekend Plans: Hopefully relaxing a little and working on virtual assistant stuff. I have a website for my VA services now. I need more examples of my work. I really need to figure out what I want to focus on. I thought it was going to be Podcast management, but I did a little of that and I was bored. Plus, it’s hard. LOL. I might focus on Pinterest since everyone wants a Pinterest manager. I got Pinterest to work for MY website, but I’ve never done it for anyone else.

Thanks for reading! Have a great week. 🙂

Fools, idiots, and Republicans

This won’t be my typical weekly type of entry. It’ll be short and sweet. I’m off on Thursday and Friday, so I might post then.

Oh, I did get a part-time short term LOCAL virtual assistant job. Um, I’m trying my hardest to get this over with on Tuesday. It involves an hour’s drive to the courthouse. My car’s brakes are now making noise. I don’t want to keep driving out there. I would just bail, but this is on a site with reviews, so that wouldn’t be good. She knows I work ALL day. And then she wants me to go to the courthouse each day after work for an hour, INSTEAD of me just going on my day off. Fuck.

Anyway, I’m here to talk about these Bloomberg idiots. Forget that he is racist, sexist, and a horrible human being. It’s not about only that. It sets a bad precedent. If he is the nominee, it will be a billionaire after billionaire buying elections. That would suck. I would stop voting for president. What would be the point? I would probably still vote for other things.

Like I said on Twitter, Bloomberg supporters are fools, idiots, or Republicans. The end. Some are getting paid to support him. But not all these fools on social media. They aren’t getting a dime, yet they are still supporting him.

I should have done this post when I was really angry with these people. LOL. Now I’m like, “They’re just stupid or low informed or maybe a moderate.” Whatever.

If Bloomberg is the nominee, I will not vote for him. The Dems and all Americans will deserve four more years of Trump. I don’t believe Bloomberg will be much different than Trump. Kids were in cages under Obama and Trump, and that will probably continue under a Bloomberg presidency.

I live in a semi-swing state (Virginia), so my vote matters. The Dems should listen to the progressive side just a little. Don’t nominate Bloomberg, or you will lose.

So if Bloomberg is the Dem nominee, I might get to stay home! I don’t think we have anything important on the ballot in November. It’s just the President. I will vote if they add something I want to vote on. I will just leave the presidency blank. I’m not voting for the Green party or anyone else.

Nominate Bloomberg if you don’t want Virginia’s support. I’ll be back later. Have a great week! 😉

 

So I can finally breathe

I’m working as a virtual assistant for only one person now. I finished the other person’s project. I did her social media graphics for a month. (!!) She gave me a GREAT review/testimonial. I have it on my VA website and on Facebook.

She’s a business coach, and she’s about to leave her full-time job to do coaching full-time. She doesn’t live far from me. She’s in DC. Anyway, it was nice to get good feedback. I enjoyed doing it too! I’ve been doing my own social media graphics for two years, but I didn’t take it seriously when doing it for myself.

I’m still working for client A. It’s going okay BUT she wants me to call local businesses in addition to what I’m supposed to be doing. I suck on the phone especially when cold calling people!! This is challenging for me. I have to get over it. I’ve only called two companies so far. Over the next two weeks, I feel the pressure to get results.

Overall, I’m enjoying it. But I also have to work full-time and I just don’t feel like I have time to get everything in. One other person wants me to work for her, and she encouraged me to ask for more money! If I valued myself more, I would contact her NOW since I’m only working for one other person. If I get more organized, I would probably be able to work for her. I’ll give myself two weeks to see if I get results for client A. If I don’t get results, there’s no way I’m going to volunteer to work for someone else doing the same thing.

That’s that.

I’ve been eating like crap. That sort of changes today. I still have leftover “bad” food. I’m not throwing the food away. Of course not! Some of it could go to my mom. I can’t donate it because it’s not canned food. However, that’s not the point. The point is that FOOD is MONEY. I can’t just throw food away and start anew. That costs money.

It’s not about weight. It’s about wanting to feel better.  The last time I weighed myself I was 133 lbs. I was shocked and glad. That was about 6 weeks ago. I know I weigh more now. I’m probably about 136 because I’ve been eating crap.

Client A is coaching me. She wants me to eat organic. Of course! I just went to the store today to test prices, and it’s cheaper to eat processed food than to even eat chicken! Okay, it’s not that much more, but it is more. Now I’m back to eating chicken for dinner every day.

I don’t cook. I just baked a week’s worth of chicken today, and I hated every second of it. LOL. I used to bake chicken every week about a year ago. I hated it back then even though it’s easy. I just hate cooking. Now I need to add vegetables. I don’t eat beans or rice. So I guess it’s vegetables. But I need a new crockpot. Sigh.

Election 2020: It looks like Pete Buttigieg is going to be the one moderates go for. Ugh. Well, I don’t like any of the moderates. If I had to pick a moderate, it would probably be Pete. So…at least it’s not Biden? Yet. He may win South Carolina and some deluded people will think he’s electable. Whatever.

I’m planning to vote for Warren in the primary. If Biden is #1 or #2 in the state, I may have to vote for Sanders or whoever is in second place. I’ll do whatever it takes so Biden won’t win. It depends on the local polls. We vote on Super Tuesday (March 3).

I don’t know why people made such a big deal out of Iowa. If anything, it sucks for the voters and the politicians because they dumped a bunch of money in Iowa. But overall, it’s just one state. Sanders or Pete won. Warren came in 3rd. Biden came in 4th. Next! Onto New Hampshire.

This week I…

Music of the week: Victory, Halsey, Leon, Maggie Rogers, James Arthur, Jillette Johnson, Taylor Swift, Tori Kelly

The Halsey album is good if you’re a fan of her past music. I almost didn’t listen to it because I’m not a huge Halsey fan.

TV of the week:  Disappeared, Vanderpump Rules

Podcasts of the week:  All in With Chris Hayes,  Crimelines, Dateline, True Crime Garage,  Pod Save America, So You Wanna Be a Witch, The Beat with Ari Melber

Books of the week:

It’s taking me forever to read, so my new plan is to listen to an audiobook for at least 30 minutes a day.

Weekend Plans: Today is Sunday – my day off. I’m working on my virtual assistant portfolio. I don’t have time to work on that during the week. From now on, I will try to take all Sundays off from any real work. I kind of had to take Friday night off because we didn’t have internet all evening.

Thanks for reading! 🙂 Have a good week.

Always walking in my shadows

I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing.

Well, starting March 1, I will no longer be doing astrology/tarot as a business. I only made about $300 in revenue in 2019. I worked hard for that, and it’s not worth it.

I am now a virtual assistant. I have TWO clients. That’s a lot of work…well, it is a lot of work for someone with a full-time job. One client is giving me in-depth coaching in return for me basically selling her services. I need the coaching, so fair trade.

The other I’m designing Instagram graphics for. I love it, but I don’t know if it’s a fair trade. I get a Facebook review on my business page from her once the work is done. That’s a big deal. But originally I told her I could do one hour a week and now I’m doing more. THIS IS MY FAULT!

Anyway, either of these could turn into paid assignments. So I feel the extra pressure to do an excellent job PLUS always be working. Sigh. I could really use a day off from my day job. I have Feb 20 and 21 off. That’s too far away. LOL.

I will have more to say about these assignments later. I’ve been doing stuff all day. It’s 10PM and my brain is fried.

I still can’t believe Kobe is dead. I read those words a lot. But to hear people SAY it…it’s not real to me. I’ve always been critical of Kobe. He raped a woman. I used to say, “I’m a Laker fan, not a Kobe fan”. But that’s crap. He was with the Lakers for 20 YEARS. It’s impossible to like the Lakers and not see Kobe. Kobe = Laker.

I admired his work ethic more than anything. He worked harder than 90% of the NBA players out there. I didn’t know him much as a dad/family man like those that knew him. I know him as a basketball player. Sigh. God.

Iowa votes on Monday. Sorry for the weird transition. I think/hope Sanders will win. Of course, I would prefer Warren winning, but that’s probably not happening. Speaking of voting, I have Super Tuesday off! 🙂 Anyway, Iowa should be fun. I guess.

Bloomberg sucks. Why are people falling for that crap? He’s worse than Biden.

This week I…

Music of the week: Taylor Swift, Halsey, Ariana Grande, Christina Aguilera, Rachel Platten, Rachel Kerr, Simran & GuruPrem, Amos Lee

TV of the week:  Disappeared, Vanderpump Rules

I’m addicted to Disappeared (true crime). I miss having Netflix. I probably will get it back in April.

Podcasts of the week:  So You Wanna Be a Witch, Crimelines, Dateline, True Crime Garage, Being Boss, Pod Save America, The Jim Fortin Podcast, The Lowe Post, Why is This Happening?

I’m listening to a bunch of business podcasts for a client. OMG, I forgot how much Being Boss sucks. It’s so vanilla.

Books of the week:

Who the fuck has time to read?

Weekend Plans: Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, and grocery shopping.

Thanks for reading! Have a great week. 🙂 I got to take a break to do this post and guess what? I feel guilty.

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I have an intern. Okay, she’s only doing one 1,200 blog post for me, but that’s one less thing I have to worry about it. She says she willing to do one more post, but of course, she wants to get paid, and I will only say yes if I can afford to pay her a fair wage. If she lives in the US, I doubt I even consider it.

1,200 words are essential to get a high ranking on Google. I blog a lot, but my posts are about 300 words because I don’t have time. It takes time to research etc. I can easily do long posts here because I’m just talking about my exciting life. 😉

OMG! My intern just messaged me. She wants to go over 1,200 words!! Why can’t I be her? Yes, please go over. Do 2,000 words. Rock it!

I did an astrology related guest post. It is my first guest post. It went up today.  She is a new business coach, so I’m not getting a ton of hits from her…yet.

Tomorrow my new class is being released. I’m surprised I’m not more nervous. I think, no, I KNOW I will be more nervous if/when a purchase comes in.

I don’t have to work tomorrow. That’s a new policy. I think it’s only been a few years since we’ve had MLK day off. However, I will be working for FREE just like I worked on Saturday for FREE for 3 hours. Sigh. Work has been full of pressure and just a headache.

That’s why I enrolled in a virtual assistant internship program. It provides a lot of practice and internships. That’s an affiliate link. Enrollment closes in about 3 weeks. I’m currently working on my portfolio. I have my FB setup and my free website. They have mentors go over ALL homework for the portfolio. I think it’s the best program on the market.

If anyone is interested in working for themselves from home and you don’t want to pay, here is a link to the free class. This class made me sure that I wanted to sign up for the program. Well, really it was the bonuses, plus getting to know her. She’s awesome and the real deal.

I no longer have to pay my landlord, so that’s how I was able to enroll in the VA program. My money will still be tight, but barring an emergency everything should be fine. I only have two more payments for the program. Most programs cost $1,000+, so I jumped on this deal. I need to quit my day job before I pull all my hair out.

I had an interview for a virtual assistant position on Wednesday. It didn’t go well. LOL. She saw my website. She helps entrepreneurs who want to make money while working a full-time job. So she just wanted to take me on as a fucking client. It was a disaster. I’m talking about working for her and she’s not interested. It was so confusing. Ugh.

So I’m thinking about just working as an intern so I can get more experience. I have a little experience. I’ve run my own biz for about 2 years. I’ve created an online course. I have a decent website. etc.

Right now is not a good time because I’m working for FREE at my day job. Sigh. I’m so tired. Overworked. Burned out. I need more interns. 🙂

I have to get back to work on my homework for the VA program. I have a 1,000-word blog post to do. I have 500 words. I’m such a slow writer.  If someone were paying me, I’m sure I would write faster.

This week I…

Music of the week: Selena Gomez, Taylor Swift, Ariana Grande, H.E.R, Maggie Rogers, Rachel Platten, Victory, Aretha Franklin

TV of the week:  Disappeared, DNC Debate

This debate was boring. No one stood out. Blah.

Podcasts of the week:  The Water Trio, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Crimelines, Dateline, True Crime Garage, Rituals for Liberation, The Rachel Maddow Show

Dateline deciding to do a podcast was the best decision ever.

Books of the week:

Weekend Plans: The weekend is almost over. I’ve been working my ass off. I’m going to continue working. Rest is a privilege, I guess. I do still take daily naps. So I do break. I go to bed most nights listening to the Dateline podcast. No one would probably recommend that. haha.

Thanks for reading! Gotta go. Have a nice weekend. 🙂

 

I hate Bank of America

I’ve been so freaking busy. I’m burned out. Sigh. And Bank of America is evil.

Other than that, things are going great. :/ I’m thinking about leaving my full-time job and working on my biz PLUS being a virtual assistant. I’m better behind the scenes. I want to work for other people’s business. I want to help them build it.

I don’t think I mentioned this here, but a month ago, I started volunteering at an animal shelter in New York. Yes, I work virtually. I answer customer inquiries on Instagram. It’s very easy. You know what the hardest thing is? Seeing all those dogs, I can’t adopt. 😦 I could never do this with a local animal shelter. Not that I can afford another dog. But it’s still tempting.

ANYWAY, if I had $3,000 in my emergency savings, I would quit my full-time job. I know 3K isn’t a lot. I think I have about $40 – $50 in my ER savings. Not sure. I don’t like to keep checking. So…not quitting now. January is always the most stressful time at my job. I’ve been working extra hours for free. However, I’m not working AT ALL this weekend. YAY!

I need to work on my biz. I’m launching a mini class on January 20th. Despite being tired as shit and having no energy. I would be thrilled if I made $100 from this launch, but I have no expectations.

I’m jumping all over the place. Ha. Okay. I want to quit my job and work for myself. The end.

Oh, and Bank of America truly sucks. I will go into more detail if they report me to collections. I was scammed! I filed a police report. I completed an affidavit. They don’t care. They want $900 by January 28. Guess what? I don’t have it. I’m 90% sure they will report me. I won’t be able to open a checking account elsewhere for FIVE YEARS. So that’s why I opened a new checking account this week.

That’s basically it. I won’t have more to say about that bank until after January 28th.

Doesn’t 2020 suck so far? My god. WTF? Hit the reset button.

This week I…

Music of the week: H.E.R, Alessia Cara, Ed Sheeran, Lake Street Drive, Ariana Grande, James Arthur, Lissie, Marren Morris

TV of the week:  This Is Us, RHoC

Podcasts of the week:  The Water Trio, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Crimelines, Dateline, True Crime Garage

Books of the week:

I finished Take Control of Your Life: How to Silence Fear and Win the Mental Game by Mel Robbins. A+ Five Stars. Whatevs.

Now reading –

Weekend Plans: I’m going grocery shopping tomorrow. My dad gave me money last time, so I got to buy turkey burgers and other things I haven’t been able to buy. I still have to do my grocery list. It’s going to be so warm this weekend. Yay! I’m not really taken advantage of it. Should I take my dog to the park on Sunday? Sigh. It depends on how far I get on stuff. My dog was so bad at the grooming place! I took him to a “bathing station” last weekend. It was $10. He was so scared. 😦 He was growling at the water and trying to eat it. I felt bad. But at least he got a bath!

I’ll try to blog weekly. Thanks for reading! Have a great weekend. 🙂

 

I walk alone

Um, shit has happened since I’ve done a real post.  I’m sure this is all standard stuff that happens to everyone. I was scammed out of $1,002, BUT I only had $100 in my checking account, so the bank wants the other $905! Needless to say, I don’t have it. I will call tomorrow to make sure they don’t really want the $4,500, which is really the total amount I was scammed out of.

However, only the $1000 check was cashed, so I doubt I have to pay the other $3,500, but I’m getting mixed messages. I can pay the bank back anywhere from $75 to $150 a month. Sigh. And these aren’t the only issues I’m having about money. I have to call TWO banks tomorrow.

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I would be foolish not to ask for money if anyone has the resources and is feeling generous. So here’s my Paypal link if you want to donate. Thank you!

HAPPY NEW YEAR! 🙂

Work sucks because I didn’t meet my quota for December. Major bummer.  I’m off until Thursday. Right now, I’m more worried about money. So I spend 70% of my time worrying about money on my vacation. And the other 30% stressing about work.

I was invited to apply for a part-time job. Since it was an invite, I think there is a chance of an interview. I asked for $25 an hour. Should have asked for their minium, which was $20 per hour. Whatever. I hope I find something in January, so I can pay the bank back and other bills. :/

What I’m leaving behind in 2019 are payment plans. If I can’t afford the whole price, I’m not buying. That’s the most important thing I learned this year. Plus, they tack on a fee for people without resources. It’s funny people with money get a discount! What kind of sense does that make? Only in capitalism would people just accept this bullshit.

Well, that’s fine. I won’t be doing payment plans for anything except a house and a car.

2020 goals? I haven’t written them down yet, so this is my first take on them.

  • Make $12,000 in sales with my business
  • Take a Kundalini yoga class
  • Go on a vacay for my birthday
  • Make the goal at work
  • Have an organized space
  • Have a decent ER fund (probably $1,000)
  • Therapy at least 2x a month

These are the first things that come to mind. I have to break most of the goals into little tasks. Tomorrow I’m putting my headphones on and cleaning my space for an hour. I have astrology books everywhere. I don’t go to them as much as I used to, so they’re getting of my eyesight. I’ve never been this excited about organizing before. I already have a trash bag full. When I clean, I throw everything away. I’m not sentimental.

My birthday is in May. In May, I might have extra money BUT all the places I want to visit usually are booked by February. I’m not spending money in February unless I get a PT job soon. If I could book in April, I think a vacation might be possible. I’m looking in the $400 – $600 range for the whole vacation. Three nights. And my dog has to be able to go. I was planning four nights until all this crap happened.

I have therapy on Tuesday. FINALLY. I had to cancel all my other appointments. I had an appointment on Friday, but when I saw she had an opening on Tuesday, I grabbed that. I need help ASAP! I’m drowning.

This week I…

Music of the week: Ariana Grande, Robyn, Taylor Swift, Christina Aguilera, Mariah Carey, Rachel Platten, Beyonce, Kari Jobe

TV of the week:  This is Us

Podcasts of the week:  The Water Trio, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Crimelines, Dateline, True Crime Garage, Generation Why, Online Marketing Made Easy

Books of the week: I need to read new books! Anyway, currently reading:

Weekend Plans: I’m excited for the park with my dog. We’re supposed to be going tomorrow, but it might rain. So then we’ll go Tuesday. I’m also excited to finally clean and organize my space tomorrow. Other than that, I’m glad I don’t have to go to work until Thursday. Mostly I’m just working on stuff, so I can have $12,000 in sales by the end of 2020.

I’m going to work on an email for a collaboration I have coming up in January. I was going to take tonight off, and then I wondered what I would do? ROFL. So I blogged here, and now back to work