Decide the words I say

My clients are driving me crazy. But I’m setting them straight…one by one. They don’t know I’ve been sick since July. However, asking someone to spend their Thursday night on your video editing project with about 2 hours notice (!!) is NUTS. Who does that?? “I’m sending you over a video, can you edit it tonight?”

It was a weeknight. Also, I have other clients. Why should I do your shit on short notice? Anyway, I told her to give me at least 3 days in the future for video editing stuff. I hate editing videos. It slows my computer down and I have to spend 2 hours straight only working on that. Grr! Apparently, she has a lot of video she wants me to edit. Great.

She went 3 weeks without giving me anything to do, so I guess she figures she can use me for anything. And the client I fired for not paying? She’s back!! So, I’m back to having four clients again.

I’m so tired and so sick. I called into sick to work on Friday. Thank god we didn’t have mandatory overtime this past week. My therapist thinks all this working is making me sick. It’s not helping. That’s for sure. I had to cancel time off scheduled for next week, so I could get paid for Friday. We don’t have sick time.

I have my endoscopy on Monday at 7AM. I need answers. I was nervous about the anesthesia, but I think I’ll be okay if my therapist described the process right. I’ve never been under anesthesia before. I have my ride scheduled. I really hope this solves the problem because I don’t want to have to pay $150 for another ride. If I need another procedure, I’m going to wait until October.

I NEED FUCKING ANSWERS!

And the summons from the credit company still hasn’t been resolved. So I guess I’m filing bankruptcy on October 1. This sucks. I can’t even worry about this anymore, because I’m always sick or working!

Current events? Who has time to even be concerned about the news when they’re dealing with all this shit. I only care about the NBA Finals a little. I don’t care about Biden or Trump. I do care about the wildfires and think about that everyday. Anyway…caring about the big news is not a privilege I have right now. Hopefully, I can get back to that soon.

This week I…

Music of the week: Ellie Goulding, Taylor Swift, Grace Potter, Ariana Grande, H.E.R, Bishop Briggs, Jessie Ware, Lauren Daigle

TV of the week:  Big Brother, 13 Reasons Why

Podcasts of the week: Truth & Justice, Dateline, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Crimelines, Joyce Meyer, The Teacher’s Pet

Books of the week: I finished reading You are the Guru: 6 Messages to Help You Through Difficult Times With Difficulty and Faith by Gabrielle Bernstein. 5 Stars. I need to listen to this again this weekend. So good and helpful.

I’m also listening to Too Much and Never Enough: How my Family Created the World’s Most Dangerous Man by Mary Trump. I’ve never managed to finish a book about Trump, but I think I’ll finish this one. I’m on chapter eight. It’s good so far. Nothing shocking yet, though.

Weekend Plans: Well, I unexpectedly slept a lot today. I’m so glad I didn’t have to work. I did work for my clients, of course, but it wasn’t much. Tomorrow I will try my best to have a regular work day so I won’t get behind.

I also have to get ready for my endoscopy. I have to read the rules again, but I don’t think there is anything major I have to do. I just have to get up at 5AM on Monday which isn’t that different from a normal Monday. I hope everything works out.

Thanks for reading! Have a great weekend/week. 🙂

Walk through fire

I don’t have much to say. I’ve worked 100 hours in two weeks for my full-time job in the past two weeks. That doesn’t count the hours of freelance work I’m doing.

I’m still sick. This sucks. I’m getting an endoscopy on September 14th at 6:30 AM. I have to pay a company about $150 because I have no one to sit with me who can drive. Woe is fucking me! What if I have to get a colonoscopy because the endoscopy doesn’t show anything? I’ll have to pay the $150 again. This doesn’t include the cost of the procedure which is probably 20% of the charge for me.

I hope I don’t have to get a colonoscopy. My uncle died from stage 4 colon cancer.

I’m not vomiting much anymore. But I still can’t eat much. I can eat at least once a day. I have stomach pain, nausea and light headaches.

Oh! This isn’t all. You thought that is all I had to bitch about? I WISH. I got a summons/warrent for credit card debt. Yipee! I’m not just dealing with working an insane amount and being really sick – I also have a court date. WOW. Someone really loves me.

I’m ignoring the summons for now. The court date isn’t until October 15. I could let them garnish my wages. Or I could try to come up with an agreement. This credit card company is supposed to be part of my debt consolidation, but the company didn’t take care of them yet. So guess who has to deal with it? ME. Not fucking Sally. ME.

Everything falls on ME. Don’t have a ride to your endoscopy? Cancel it or scramble around all week to find some stranger to take you. Exhausted? Sick? Who gives a shit. I’M going to work 50 hours a week (not counting my freelance work) for you. I did the right thing and enrolled in debt consolidation. Who got a summons? ME.

I don’t want to hear about fucking Sally and how she’s living through a pandemic. She doesn’t even have kids to homeschool. WHAT THE FUCK IS SHE LIVING THROUGH? Sally will be fine. She’s not sick. She might not even have to work for the man. She has housing. She has food. She doesn’t have a summons. She has people to take her to an endoscopy. Screw Sally!!

Okay, I have PTSD and the pandemic didn’t affect me that much because I can handle shit like this. Sally doesn’t have PTSD? SAY WHAT?

I’ll try to be nice to Sally because she’s living through the pandemic. Seriously, WTF? Add more to that plate Sally.

Did I just go on a rant? Yes.

I don’t want to talk about current events this week. Blah.

This week I…

Music of the week: Yola, Emily James, Ellie Goulding, Taylor Swift, Ariana Grande, James Arthur, Sounds of Blackness, Rachel Platten

TV of the week:  Big Brother, 13 Reasons Why

Podcasts of the week: Truth & Justice, Dateline, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Crimelines, Serial, Gone Cold, The Lowe Post

Books of the week: I finished reading Atomic Habits by James Clear. It’s a decent book if you really want to start a new habit.

Weekend Plans: Well, today is Sunday. I worked almost all day yesterday. Today is mostly a day off. I have a few freelance things to do. I just hope I don’t have to work 50 hours at my day job next week AGAIN. I know we will be forced to work at least 45 hours which is much better than 50 hours.

Thanks for reading. Have a great week.

How to lose 7 pounds in 5 weeks

Or so. I don’t know how long I’ve been sick. I have this blog and an online private blog that no one can read. I probably need to look at dates to figure out when I really got sick. Of course, I thought it was only temporary. But it wasn’t!

Here we are. AND I’M STILL SICK! Sigh. This sucks. Of course, this was the week I was forced to work 10 hours of overtime which is complete bullshit. I have never been treated so bad by this company. I’ve been there for 15 years and this is the worse!!

Do you think I would still be there if it had been horrible for 15 years???! I’m a Taurus, so maybe. I dunno.

I saw a random doctor via Telehealth on Thursday. She said it’s probably not COVID. She also said I didn’t seem stressed which is complete bullshit. A Taurus never seems stressed. You have to REALLY piss off a Taurus to see them stressed or angry. We hide our feelings and our disdain. I thought that was funny. In fact, I laughed when she said that.

Anyway…she said it could be gallbladder or diabetes related. She also said it could be anything. LOL. Thanks. I think it’s my gallbladder. Bummer. What if I have to have surgery? I’ve never had surgery. Stop freaking me out!

As far as diabetes, my glucose levels are fine so even though it runs in my family, I don’t think it’s that. I have another Telehealth appointment on Tuesday with my PCP. She will probably refer me to get an ultasound for my gallbladder.

I have no idea why Telehealth keeps getting capitalized. It’s BS. I’m not changing it.

I feel like shit right now. I’m working crazy hours. One client hasn’t paid me which is fine because then I can let her go. I don’t like doing her work. I don’t mind uploading her blog posts and making it look nice, but everything else is not what I enjoy doing. It would be nice to be paid though.

Fuck. What a privilege it is to not have to work for money. I am not talking about people receiving disability. If I lived in another country, I could receive disability. I have the receipts. Anyhow, I just want to make that clear.

I’m talking about people with partners and well off parents. etc. There are people that don’t have to work for money. What a nice life. While some of us are vomiting while working. Yes, that was me these past two weeks. I envy them. But that’s not my life and I need to get over it.

Current events 2020: I applied for my mail in ballot two weeks ago. Whatever about the president. (Okay, I hope Trump loses). I’m concerned with the local stuff. If I have to vote in person, I will. I think we can start voting in person in about a month. I don’t want to do have to do that, but I will. I’ll take my mom too. She also applied for her mail in ballot. So we’ll see.

I listened to a lot of the Democratic National Convention via PBS the day after the event occurred. I couldn’t listen to Biden. Bleh. I missed Sanders. I heard Warren, Kamala, Jill Biden and Obama. It was well done. I probably will listen to the Republican one, but not if it’s too stressful. For god sakes, I avoided BIDEN. How the hell am I going to listen to Republicans? Good point. 😉

Centrists are destroying everything. I hate them. I guess I shouldn’t say hate, but ugh, they ruin everything. And they are just there…not doing shit. Okay, I’ve never protested but I have severe social anxiety. I want to protest how we are dealing with COVID. Fuck. I want to protest everything.

I’m going to start giving back to the Innocence Project once my money is more consistent. When I wasn’t making much, I donated $12 a month. I stopped when I ran out of money and had to cancel EVERYTHING. If I can find a more local charity – great. But I like their work. I don’t agree with how they handle everything, but I value 95% of their work.

If Trump “successfully” steals this election, there should be mayhem in the streets. I might even join if I’m not sick and working.

This week I…

Music of the week: Danielle Bradbury, Ellie Goulding, Marren Morris, Miranda Lambert, Jessie James Decker, Lauren Alaina, Maddie & Tae, Mariah Carey

Lot of country music this week. It just sorta happened.

TV of the week:  Big Brother, 13 Reasons Why

Podcasts of the week: Truth & Justice, Dateline, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Crimelines, Fresh Air, Serial, It Was Simple

Books of the week: Start Where You Are: A Guide to Compassionate Living by Pema Chodron

…and two other books by Pema Chodron that I’m too lazy to link to.

Weekend Plans: Well, I have to work 7 hours tomorrow. I’ll probably get up at 7 and start work at 7:30. Then on Sunday, I’m going grocery shopping because I can’t eat any of the food I have!! I’m buying 5 cans of chicken noodle soup. That should last until I go back to the store on September 6. Since COVID, I try to only go to the store once a month. I was doing Instacart because I was feeling like shit, but that’s expensive. I’d rather put gas in my car (which I haven’t needed to do in about 2 months), and just go to the store.

Instacart is great for people with the resources, but when I’m not sure what I can eat and I keep wanting to get food delivered because I’m not feeling well…it’s BAD.

Have a nice weekend. Thanks for reading. 🙂

Start Where You Are

I took a COVID test. Kind of. Argh! I was too terrified to go to a doctor because I knew they would stick that shit up my nose, so I went to a CVS Minute Clinic where I put the stick up my own nose. The problem? I didn’t stab it up my nose that much because FUCK, why would I do that?

I wish the COVID test was a blood draw. I don’t have a problem with needles, but I’m not sticking shit up my nose. So the test might be a complete waste. I took the test last Saturday. No results yet.

I’ve been sick for at least 15 days. Probably more. I just started eating somewhat normally yesterday, but today I didn’t eat dinner. So I’m still not feeling well.

If it weren’t for my therapist, I would have NEVER gotten a COVID test. She basically said I looked like shit when I had my appointment on July 31. I was so used to eating only once a day at that point that I didn’t even feel that weird. She convinced me that I should go to CVS and swab my own nose.

I don’t know what’s wrong. I just know I’ve never been sick this long in my life. NEVER. If it’s not COVID, then um, I dunno what’s wrong. I don’t want to go to the doctor again. I’m pretty much okay as long as I drink sugar free Gatorade and eat once a day. Why didn’t anyone tell me Gatorade (even the sugar free version) is so good???! My therapist told me. This past appointment was probably the most helpful session ever. Drink Gatorade! Yes, ma’am.

What else? Work sucked on Thursday. I’m only working 3 days next week. I’m off on Thursday and Friday. My goal is too remain focused and do the best 3 days of work I’ve ever done. I’m probably going to ask too many questions, but whatever. I’m new to this work and the support is okay, but it could be better.

My freelance work was okay this week. I have 4 clients, but I managed to get a week off from one client so that was great. I get one week a month off from her. She’s a therapist in New York.

I have one complaint about a client. She thinks I’m a website designer or something! Yes, I know Squarespace. That’s easy. (So is Wix). But WordPress.Org is hard. I did what she wanted about an hour ago, but ugh! I have my new website on WordPress.Org and oh my, Squarespace is so much easier. But I’ve dumped so much money into WordPress, so I’m sticking with them for myself.

It’s Saturday morning. Midnight. I went to sleep for 6 hours (!!) after my day job and now my schedule is all messed up. I will try to get to bed by 2AM. I think I’m going to work on my freelance website, after I finish blogging this since I’ve done most of my work.

Gotta go. All I have to say about current events is that I need to get my absentee ballot. I want it in the mail by September.

This week I…

Music of the week: Taylor Swift, Ellie Goulding, JoJo, Rachel Platten, Ariana Grande, Mariah Carey, Robyn, Ashanti

TV of the week:  Big Brother, Little Fires Everywhere

Little Fires Everywhere isn’t great, but I recommend it to Gen X and maybe millennials for the 90s references. I can’t keep up with the generations. Anyway, who remembers YM magazine? That was my favorite. I even had a subscription!

Podcasts of the week:  Truth & Justice, Dateline, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Undisclosed, The JJ Redick Podcast, The Lowe Post, Up and Vanished, Unlocking Us, Crimelines, 1619, The Astrology Podcast, Why is This Happening,

I have a lot of time to listen to podcasts while working. 😉

Books of the week: Start Where You Are: A Guide to Compassionate Living by Pema Chodron

Weekend Plans:  It’s 12:33 AM on Saturday morning. I wish I was tired enough to go to bed. I will probably work on my website for a bit and then get in bed. This weekend I have freelance work and I’m working on own stuff. I always have to be in marketing or making mode, so I can have income coming in.  

Thanks for reading! Have a great weekend and week. 🙂

Dry heat

I got my period for the first time in a year a week ago. Who was super pissed? ME. Fuck the patriarchy. I don’t need a period. I know all these women are so in love with their periods. Or that is a newish trend. But I think it’s bullshit. I don’t need a period. I don’t want a period. Why am I on birth control in the first place????!

I have to schedule an appointment with my ob/gyn. That’s the only way I can keep getting birth control. I will probably go in September. I’m trying to get three days off straight. So I’ll see what my new boss says. I have no idea how they do time off.

Oh, I forgot I better schedule a mammogram before they get on me about that. I will do that with time off in October.

I have an appointment with my psychiatrist in 1 hour. This should be interesting. I’m trying to get off Lexapro. It was good to me for years, but now my body hates it. It makes me too tired.

I’m overworking. What else is new? I had to tell one client I was sick today and I am. I can’t keep any food down. 😦 I’ve been sick for 3 or so days. I finally ordered some medicine, but it’s not coming until tomorrow. blah.

Anyway, at least I know what’s causing me to be tired. So should I cancel my sleep appointment? I probably should cancel. The appointment is Wednesday, so I have to cancel on Monday.

I’m still wondering whether I should hire someone. My work is kind off inconsistent, but it’s becoming more consistent each week which is good, but I’m not sure I NEED to hire someone.

I hit my income goal for July. That’s good news, but I also worked 7 days a week. So….

Politics/Current Events 2020: I probably will vote for Biden even though I live in Virginia and I don’t have to. But since I’m voting anyhow, I may as well vote for president. I need to get my absentee ballot and mail it in 3 weeks early. I want to make sure my vote counts. Not for the presidency…but for the other stuff on our ballot.

This week I…

Music of the week: Taylor Swift, The Chicks, Ellie Goulding, Keith Urban, Miranda Lambert, Aretha Franklin, Ariana Grande, Carrie Underwood

TV of the week:  Cheer

The fact that people can watch Cheer on Netflix and not talk about concussions in sports says everything you need to know about America’s sports fans. I’m truly disturbed.

Podcasts of the week:  Truth & Justice, Dateline, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Abraham Hicks, Undisclosed, Crime Junkie, Pod Save America, The JJ Redick Podcast, The Lowe Post

Books of the week: Call Me God: The Untold Story of the DC Sniper Investigation by a bunch of people

Weekend Plans: Today is Sunday. My body wouldn’t let me work as much as I wanted, so SIGH. I have two appointments tonight. I will try to fit some work in.

Thanks for reading! Have a good week. 🙂

Been looking behind, bridge burned

It’s so fucking hot! I’m in the attic, and I have no AC. It’s about 120 degrees in here. It’s only 99 degrees outside. FUCK. That’s all I got. The main problem is when I get heat exhaustion, and I have to work, but my brain isn’t there, so I can’t work. I HATE THAT.

What else? Oh, I went back to the doctor. She has no answers as to why I’m so tired. She didn’t even mention chronic fatigue syndrome, which is a thing. Anyway, she referred me to a sleep specialist. I might go one day next week. I already contacted them and told them I wanted an appointment.

Guess what? She thinks it might be sleep apnea! Even though I weigh 135 pounds and am otherwise healthy. Yes, it is possible, but I think that’s a stretch. I don’t know whether I snore. Anyways, if I can take the test at home, I’ll do it. I’d rather not stay overnight at the sleep center and leave my dog alone. But if I do the test at the center, I would have AC. 😉

Not much going on. I have work stress and heat stress.

I was off on Thursday and Friday. I took my dog to a mostly empty park:

Politics/Current Events 2020: I don’t have much to say here either. I’m saddened by John Lewis’ death. He was just walking around in DC around June 10th. What else? The United States is a capitalistic shit of a country. That was known before COVID, but now it is so apparent.

This week I…

Music of the week: Ellie Goulding, Mariah Carey, Coldplay, Stacie Orrico, The Chicks, Rachel Platten, Robyn, Beyonce

TV of the week:  Unsolved Mysteries

Podcasts of the week:  Truth & Justice, Dateline, Someone Knows Something, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Serve Scale Soar, Abraham Hicks, Sword & Scale

Books of the week: Untamed by Glennon Doyle

Weekend Plans: Today is Sunday. All I’ve done is work. I have at least one more thing to do for a client today. So I’m going to do that before my brain turns to mush tonight.

Have a lovely week! Thanks for reading.

Nothing but a t-shirt on

My Wi-Fi keeps going out. But I had a meeting this morning, and it went okay. She taught me the very basics of WordPress.Org, and wow, I feel like I know so much. But really, I know nothing. LOL.

I’ve been working nonstop, so it feels good to take some time out to blog. And I’m working on stuff for me. Well, I’m launching a product, so I don’t have to work so much. However, it’s kind of fun. Well, it’s a bit overwhelming too.

I went to the doctor to get my blood drawn. The bloodwork didn’t tell me shit, so that was a waste of time. I’m still really fatigued, and I don’t know what to do. I start my “new” job on Tuesday. (Then I’m off on Thursday and Friday). I just hope I can keep my eyes open at work.

I’m now taking vitamins. Many say vitamins are pointless, so I hope that’s not true. I will be able to tell by next Friday.

I love being a virtual assistant, but OMG with these clients! Some pay 10 days late. Some (okay, MOST) act like they are my only client. Dude, I have a job and 4 clients. I might have 5, but that’s another story.

They act like I’m sitting around watching Netflix. ARGH!!!!!!!111!!!!!!!!

Politics/Current Events 2020: I can’t believe people are doing in-person events! WTF is wrong with these people? A business owner I respect (?) had a mastermind with about 8 people this past week! That’s fucking nuts. Are these people watching the news? I don’t value my life, BUT I don’t want to go through the pain of dying from COVID, so I’m staying home.

I also see people hanging out with extended family. NOPE. Are these people watching the news? Do they value their life? My cousin had a big barbeque. Unfuckingbelievable. I hope no one gets sick. The last I heard many new cases of COVID are asymptomatic.

I would go to the park by myself (well, with my dog). I was desperate for a solution, so I went to get lab work. My dad had me running around trying to get money from Western Union. I was so livid. Do you know how many places I had to go to? FIVE. I had my mask and lots of hand sanitizer, of course.

If people want to risk their lives, I’m usually fine with that, but they are putting others at risk too. My sister is a teacher in a private school. No idea what they are going to do about that. I’m glad I don’t have kids. What a headache this must be. But I would probably homeschool my invisible kids, so this wouldn’t be a huge issue. My dog is homeschooled by his grandma. He is 6 years old and going to first grade in the fall. 😉 He is so smart already!

This week I…

Music of the week: Jojo, Ariana Grande, Jessica Simpson, Selena Gomez, Jillette Johnson, Kelly Clarkson, Maggie Rogers, Stacie Orrico

TV of the week:  How to Get Away With Murder

Podcasts of the week:  Truth & Justice, Undisclosed, Someone Knows Something, White Lies, So You Wanna Be a Witch, The Productive Life

Books of the week: Untamed by Glennon Doyle

Weekend Plans: Working, planning, more working. I had a weekend off in June, so it is possible.

Thanks for reading! Have a great weekend/week. 🙂

It’s not the birth control.

This isn’t much of a post. I just wanted to check-in. It’s not the birth control that is making me so tired.

I talked to an herbalist, but she can’t do much without bloodwork. I haven’t seen my doctor in 2 to 3 years. Every time I get bloodwork, it’s always, “You’re fine, but your iron is a little low“. It’s low, but not low enough to cause concern. Just take a vitamin. Blah.

Anyway, I have a telehealth appointment on Monday (June 22). I will probably get bloodwork done on Wednesday.

I’m guessing it’s a thyroid thing due to my symptoms. But I don’t know.

I’m supposed to be working on my client’s marketing email, but I wanted to say: It’s not the birth control. Per the doctors, less than 10% of people feel fatigued for more than 3 months due to birth control.

Thanks for reading. Be back soon! 🙂

Free time?

White people are really something. And that’s all I have to say about that. I might say more. Okay, I’ll say I find their “learning” exhausting. I guess they have to learn out loud, or it didn’t happen?

I am posting today because I got rid of the client paying me the lowest rate and taking up all my time! So glad. I have more time now. Now I just have to use my time wisely this weekend.

I’m really motivated to blog today because I figured out why I’m tired all the time. BIRTH CONTROL. I thought it was the anti-depressant!! Nope. This answer should bring relief. But it doesn’t because BC has completely stopped my period, and I love it. I hate having a period more than anything. So…I’m willing to be tired.

However, this morning I was so tired that I physically could not work. I’ve been moved to a new department at work*, so I’m in self-paced training and was able to go back to sleep for 40 minutes. But in two weeks THIS WILL NOT BE AN OPTION. I work at a company big on production, so I can’t just say I’m tired and go back to bed.

The good news is that Monday through Thursday, I was able to get up at 5:35 AM and go to work. That’s good. But what happens if today’s tiredness occurs again?

I’m not going off birth control. If I were physically unable to work every day, I wouldn’t have much of a choice. But as of today, I’m just going to try to push through. The funny thing is I got enough sleep last night (7 hours), so sleeping enough wasn’t the issue. I am having problems sleeping because my room is around 110 degrees at night, so it’s hard to sleep.

Anyway, I am going to do some research on what I can do besides going off birth control. It’s a hormonal thing. I’m not going to cook, so if that’s the only answer: fuck it. I will be very, very, unhappy if I have to go off birth control. I FINALLY stopped my period, and then two years later, I start having side effects??! 😦 I’ve been on this med for three years, but my period didn’t stop until about a year ago.

*I was moved to a new department at work. It’s a good move, and I got lucky. Where I’m working now, can’t be outsourced to another country. Unfortunately, the department I used to work for is probably going to be gone in two months or so! Yes, I got lucky, but I still have to be awake (LOL) and do a good job.

Politics/Current Events 2020: I think Joe is going to pick Kamala or Susan Rice as his VP. I don’t have an opinion on Rice. I think I’ve shared a lot of thoughts on Kamala. Not a fan. I don’t like what she did as a prosecutor. I don’t like many prosecutors, so no shock there. But her past is not good with me. Due to all this stuff going on, Joe is probably going to win.

Yay, for all the beheadings…of the historical statues. Richmond, VA, did a lot. LOL. They threw Christopher Colombus in the lake. Jefferson Davis is gone.

I will probably have more to say later. I have pretty much tweeted everything I’ve wanted to say.

This week I…

Music of the week: Ariana Grande, Rachel Platten, Stacie Orrico, Alessia Cara, Ellie Goulding, Jessica Simpson, Keith Urban, Lil Wayne

TV of the week:  Grey’s Anatomy

Podcasts of the week:  Dateline, Truth & Justice, Undisclosed, The Lowe Post

Books of the week: Nothing really

I plan to get some reading done this weekend and next week. It is hard to read and be in training at work at the same time. When I’m not in training, I listen to podcasts, books, music, etc.

Weekend Plans: Last week, I hired someone as a virtual assistant. She lasted for about a day. Shit. I just wrote a bunch of crap, but it got deleted. ARGH. Anyhow, The VA I hired didn’t have any VA related skills, but I wanted to help her. I’m not going to say I’m never going to hire someone with no experience again. But at that time, I needed experience. I’m not interested in hiring now. I want to do the work myself since I now have the time. Plus, I need to get practice in. If a client doesn’t like my work, they are free to go elsewhere.

This weekend I’m going to write out my processes, email all my clients and try to get things more explicit. I’m kind of scared to email my clients because they might give me a bunch of work and ruin my weekend. LOL.

So I’m basically working on my own business this weekend. I’ve been neglecting everything because I’ve been working for others.

Have a great weekend! Thanks for reading. 🙂

Tell ’em that’s it’s my birthday

I have this whole week off from work for my birthday. I went to the sauna today. I wore my mask the whole time in the sauna. LOL. It was so relaxing. It’s the only time I haven’t felt tense. My shoulders were relaxed, which never happens. They are still a little relaxed.

If I liked leaving the house regularly, I would go to the sauna once a week. But I don’t like leaving my house that much! LOL.

My birthday was good. I took the full day off. I binge-watched Curb Your Enthusiasm. I love that show!  My mom bought me a tarot deck I really wanted. My sister gave me an Amazon gift card. I used it to buy a frying pan. How boring, right? But I needed one.

I bought myself a ton of shit because I’m a Taurus and we are fucking indulgent. I bought myself a Fitbit, which I think I already mentioned. I had a 30-minute astrology reading. I bought myself a laptop bed desk – FINALLY. I’ve been doing my VA work mostly laying down and, it’s not comfortable. No shit. I think I will get work done faster.

Here it is:

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It has an iPad stand and a cell phone place. It’s coming on Friday. I cannot wait. I’m so sick of working this way. I hope it comes early Friday morning. LOL.

I’m still overwhelmed with work. I’m working on things to make things better. How vague. I will reveal everything if stuff works out. I’m working tonight as soon as I finish this post. I’m trying to put myself in a position to be able to leave my job by December 2020. That’s the plan.

What is there to say about election 2020? I’m so happy all Virginians can vote by absentee ballot. I’m still not sold on Biden, but I’m not saying I’m not voting for him. I haven’t decided. I don’t have a prediction. I used to think Trump would win for sure, but then COVID-19 happened. So…I dunno.

I don’t have strong feelings for Biden’s VP. Stacey Abrams really wants it. Since Biden is probably going to be a one-term president IF he wins, the VP choice is kind of important. I don’t want him to take anyone from the Senate because we need them in the Senate. I like Abrams, but I haven’t read EVERYTHING about her, so I can’t say I support her. I like her.  I like what I know about her. LOL. And she’s not in the Senate. I don’t think she will be Biden’s pick. I’m sure she’s on the shortlist.

Just don’t choose Amy FUCKING Kloubacher. Thanks! 🙂

This week I…

Music of the week: Ludacris, Solange, Bethel Music, David Crowder Band, Ellie Goulding, Hillsong United, Rachel Platten, Stacie Orrico

TV of the week:  Survivor, The Last Dance

Podcasts of the week:  Dateline, So You Wanna Be a Witch, Truth & Justice, Undisclosed, Fresh Air

Books of the week:

I haven’t felt like reading much this week. I did go back to reading a bit of Freeing Yourself from Anxiety: 4 Simple Steps to Overcome Worry and Create the Life You Want by Dr. Tamar Chansky

Weekend Plans: Working. I hope to make it to the park one day this week. We are getting rain from Arthur. My dog would LOVE to go to the park. Me too. 😉 I haven’t worked much today, so I’m going to work for about 2 hours before I relax.

Thanks for reading! Have a great week. :